RE-EVALUATUING MY COMMITMENT
When I'm right on the track, the energy seems to be constantly renewing itself. But often it is not!
A repeated re-evaluation of my commitment has become a prerequisite for me.
My path is covered with egos.
Some wanting to manifest their importance in the material world.
Others beleiving their imprint to be of spiritual significance.
Belive me. I know them all.
And I struggle to find my way through a veil of ignorance.
My engagement and passionate drive, I find hold a core of truth ~ an 'energy' of my soul, beyond the egos. To be able to see that, I need to train discernment, and one parameter for manifesting is how willing I am to let go and leave it up to a greater truth to confirm/challenge my choice and lead me elsewhere.
Often my surroundings tell me where I'm faltering and where my spirit stands strong in the storm.
I am in the learning of letting receptive awareness, letting go and 'allowing' BE my path. AND 'trust'! Often trust is my biggest challenge when things don't go my wills way.
It is a lifeprocess of grief when old dreaming shows outdated. And in the phase of life I'm in ~ going from adulthood to elderhood ~ it is a lot of letting go of that which didn't manifest the way I fought for. In this the glimpses of understanding 'why' it didn't and what growth came of it, through the path showing, comfort my heart and calms my mind.
When it turns out being all worth living for, is when those processes of growth, transformation and discovery bring uplifted hope into the bigger picture ~ when a sense of new states of being manifest through my body and radiates its light and energy onto the world.
YAY